Tomorrow is NOT guaranteed. Go after what you want right NOW.

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I’ve been really depressed and frustrated with myself. Somehow I always end up back  where I started.  Every year,  I gain weight lose weight then gain it back again.  It’s a vicious cycle. A cycle I no longer want to be a part of.

I really really want to pursue fitness and nutrition.  I love the feeling of being able to help and inspire other people to live healthier lives . Friends and even random strangers messaging and sending thank you letters and gifts to me  for helping them out with their own fitness journey.

Last February, I lost about 15 pounds in  8 weeks. I was planning to quit my job that time to pursue my dream. My end goal is to become a registered personal trainer and a nutritionist.  I decided to stay at my job with the promise that I could still pursue what I am most passionate about. After a few weeks though, the workload piled up again and all my time that should have been spent meal prepping, exercising and working towards my goals ended in the opposite direction. I gained all the weight back, even more.

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At this point in my life, I  turned into such a negative person. My negativity affecting my relationships with friends, family and loved ones. Not wanting to see anyone as I am not confident with myself. Not being able to look a person in the eye as well. I turned to food for comfort and exercise no longer existed in my daily routine.

Four months ago, I started to notice a bit of discomfort in my chest. I didn’t mind this at first as I thought it was just part of my menstrual cycle. Recently, I noticed a distinct pain in my left chest and felt a lump but I thought nothing of it.  I went to the breast center in Medical City last Saturday to have an ultrasound done. The doctor conducting the test looked  concerned with that specific area and she did verify that there was a mass present in my left breast. I started to cry ( I tried to be as discreet as possible).  Results were to come out in 2 days. Those two days were spent worrying about how my life could change by Monday. I thought of every possibly scenario. “Is this Cancer? Am I going to die? ”  I am diagnosed with Panic Anxiety so you can just imagine what went on in my head.  Luckily my results said probably Benign. I’m okay.

Initially I was planning to leave my job by 2018 and to start working towards my dreams then. Something I realized is this: Tomorrow is NOT guaranteed. Go after what you want right NOW.

Maybe finding that cyst was a sign from God to remind me of what I really wanted to do. I am currently trying to find that balance. If it is important to me I need to make time for it. I’ve decided for the time that I will still be working ( planning to resign by Q4 of this year ) I need to be selfish and make time for myself.  I need to give myself a cut off with work and spend my mornings and after work hours focusing on my goals. No more excuses. And even if this is the nth time I’m starting over again, I’m not giving up!

 

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ST. JAMES BAZAAR 2016: The Largest Bazaar in Alabang

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Did you know? The Saint James Bazaar has been happing yearly for about 25 years now? YES, TWENTY-FIVE! It is considered the biggest bazaar in the south with around 500 concessionaires in Cuenca Community Park. What makes this bazaar extra special is that all the funds they earn goes to a good cause. Yay!

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I have been constantly present at the bazaar for about 10 years now. My Momma Bear has a stall there everywhere so I try to go and support her when I can. This year, I decided to document it via video to show you guys all the cool stuff I found at the bazaar.

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We went around for hours and it can get quite hot so be sure to wear something breezy!

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Our favorite stall has got to be this alcohol shop that serves unique flavors of lambanog and wine! Got some as pasalubong for Jason’s parents.

More stores can be seen at my video below and check out some of the items I bought! 🙂

 

 

MY FIRST VLOG: DAY TRIP TO LAIYA

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Jason and I had a free day from work and basketball practice. We haven’t gone on a trip in a while so I really wanted to do something different! Luckily, my driver was free on that day so my parents allowed me to use him! ( Thank you parentals )

 

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Being the creature of habit that I am, I decided to go to a place that i’m quite familiar with. Laiya White Cove  which is a private beach situated in San Juan Batangas ( about a 2 hour drive from Alabang )

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Jason and my Driver, Mang Roel

 

I decided to document our trip and I tried my best to vlog. Hopefully you guys enjoy this video!  🙂

 

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DEAR DIET DELIVERY PH REVIEW: 1,200 calories a day

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After my cheat week in Korea ( I ate the WORLD ) I knew I had to get back on track with my clean eating. Since I had a lot of catching up with work to do, I did not have enough time to meal prep my own food.So I decided to try out Dear Diet Delivery PH!

Food for the Seoul (I)

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Traveling is good for you. In a way, it helps you find yourself. You get to appreciate the culture of a place,  you get to taste unique flavors and discover new dishes that you’ve never tried before, you get to see the world through somebody else’s perspective.